mmmk...

[Kiweh]

So yeah as you all know I am moving next week..... And we think we sold our house today....
well at homecoming last week I met this guy and I know he likes me and all and I like him and my friend Kim said that he's going to ask me out but anyways I don't know what to tell him. I'm moving in thirty days and I'm not sure if I should start something. This of course has to happen right before I move just like last time but yeah... last time was different. so yeah thoughts about this situation would be nice ^^;

[Lilium]

Oh wow that sucks >->

Ummm, well the truth would be best, like maybe "Oh, I'm so sorry, I really like you too but unfortunately I'm moving to Florida." xDDD Ok, kinda sounds like one of those things where you say you're moving and you really don't. LOL ummmmmmm yeah I dunno xDDD

[Kiweh]

[Kiweh]

ya know what, I've desided to have as much fun this last month and just make sure that he knows that I'm moving but that I like him so yeah.... I'm getting his friend to nudge him into asking me :] lol

[STARLING]

Do it! Go out with him, it doesn't have to be anything serious, just have fun your last month there cos you know if you don't go out with him you'll be sad you didn't (and he prolly will be too). ;3

[Kiweh]

Yeah that's exactly what I was thinking!!!

[Kiweh]

lol wellllll ok so the first guy got a job and can't really do anything anymore. His computer is broken so he doesn't talk to me and he isn't much for texting so yeah I haven't really talked to him in a while but I have been talking to his friend, Nick, and it turns out that he liked me too and he asked me out. So yeah now I'm going out with Nick. He knows I only have like 20 days left though and he wants me to have fun so yeah, I think it's sweet :] but I feel kinda bad for Sam, the first guy, because Sam and Nick were friends. and yeah well we haven't really told Sam yet.

[Kiweh]

ah ha! So yeah on Friday we all went and watched a movie :] There was quite a few of us and well one of my friends, kiersten, came too and she has never met any of the guys. She really only knew me and Kim, the girl who introduced me to Sam, Nick, and practically everyone. But yeah they all went to dinner without me (cause I was babysitting) and Kiersten and Sam started talking. Well on Saturday Kiersten told me that she liked Sam. She told Kim too. Well Kim goes to school with Sam so she is going to try to get them together which makes me mucho happy because now I won't feel so guilty about Sam, ya know? So yeah so far things are working out :] if only I had a few extra months... or if only I could have met these awesome people earlier...

See none of the people at my school (Kiersten goes to the same school as me, Nick, Sam, and Kim and everyone else goes to a different school) are as awesome as these guys. They are so crazy and I can actually act like myself around them. Y'all know how I act on here. I don't act like that in real life... I wish I could but people would look at me funny XD but around these guys I can :] it's so awesome! but yeah none of the kiddies at my fucked up school act like that so I feel like I'm in a prison and I hate it. I have to act like some boring chick in almost every class but art (because in art I have crazy friends too but they are all girls annnnnnd yeah)... I really hope my new school is different... -dies- my life is so messed up.

[Kiweh]

Here is nick and sam at homecoming. No they are not gay, they were just being goofy..... --'


it's the only pic that they are both in when they are not doing something too weird XD Nick is the blond, Sam has the brown hair. They are both freakin awesome <3

[STARLING]

Awww, awesome to see it's worked out Sarah! Glad you're having fun! They're cute
I understand how you feel... my school used to be like that... but I came to a realization a couple years back and I'm just myself around everyone now... If they don't like it, it's not like they have to talk to me. xD And it's not like I'm mean, at all, just kinda... weird.

You know you've made it when you walze in the room all and you have candy canes glued onto your hair and it's sticking straight up and people are just like, "YOU'RE MY HERO!" xDDD

[Kiweh]

yeah with this next school I'm going all out, I hope, I get shy when I'm around new pple... -sigh- but I'm going to try to act myself around people and be outgoing ya know?

[Kiweh]

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rawr...
this was a huge mistake I hate all of this. I'm so bleh now... sometimes I wish i just left things alone. maybe it wouldn't be so hard to fix things if I had cause now I'm hating life.
:/ this is Nick's new profile song... he also posted the lyrics on the bulletin board and talked to me about it on AIM... idk

My Immortal -- Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me



You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk

[Jukebox]

Sorry about that. I really don't knwo what to say cause I've never been in a relationship like that and I've never had to move away form Phoenix.

In 8th grade I had a friend, he was awsome and I don't know what I would have done at my old public school without him. I was the only girl n a group of about 7 guys, and he was one of the only two that treated me like a girl. Later on he said he loved me, but I didn't feel the same way. And before he went right out and said it to me straight (cause I'm almost as dense as Lue), he hinted a lot. One time he told me he listened to this one song over and over again while lying on the floor and thinking. And I didn't understand it at first (cause I'm dense), but later on it made me feel really bad about not liking him. I miss him alot.

These are the lyrics . I don't listen to the song anymore because it makes me cry to think about him, and this song always reminds me of him.

Trying hard to speak and
Fighting with my weak hand
Driven to distraction
It's all part of the plan
When something is broken
and you try to fix it
Trying to repair it anyway you can

I dive in at the deep end
and you become my best friend
I want to love you but I don’t know if I can
I know something is broken
and I’m trying to fix it
Trying to repair it anyway I can

Oooohh, oooohh
Oooohh, oooohh

You and me are floating on a tidal wave… together
You and me are drifting into outer space
and singing

Oooohh, oooohh

You and me are floating on a tidal wave… together
You and me are drifting into outer space
You and me are floating on a tidal wave… together
You and me are drifting into outer space
and singing

Oooohh, oooohh
Oooohh, oooohh

[Kiweh]

awe yeah I had a friend like that too but of course I moved and he told me after the fact...
that is really sweet though, what's the name of the song??? just wondering I wanna hear it :]
yeah ugh

[Jukebox]

X & Y by Coldplay.

Yeah, he didn't move as far as I know. But he went to a public high school and I went to a girl's only private school. And Then he stopped talking to me last year for some reason.